Thursday, February 7, 2008

Have you ever?

Have you ever felt that you're not enough? Or that you are embarressed for your family? Or even worse, you are rude to them and do not treat them with the respect they deserve?

I have, I have and I'm ashamed of myself that I am rude and respectles.

See, your blogger is surrounded by people who love him, I'm not going crazy here, just follow a little bit. I used to be a pretty funny guy with a good genuine old smile, could charm almost every one and their brother and truly ment for them to feel good. I am a brother, a big one at that, trusted to be a god father to two beautiful boys. And look at me, stressed out beyond imaginable, every time I speak to my parents it's whine, whine poor me. Last time I had my inlaws over from Spain I showed my ass. Lets not get started on my American side of our family.

I feel I have the wheight of the world on my shoulders, I do. I'm short, inresponsive and , truth be told, a fucking prick.

I am truly sorry, I never ment to hurt you, I love you with all my heart. The only promise I have/can make is to Marta:

I will do my best to find my smile again.

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